Horrible horrible truth.
Saw something which I really shouldn't have seen.
Why am I so KPO?
I just had to care, had to hope that I can see what you have been up to.
And now, I brought hurt to myself.
Inflicted it like it's no one else business.
Oh yeah, it really is no one else business.
I feel so cheated, so useless.
I was never important to you.
It's time, time to stop whining, because you have never cared.
It's better this way anyway.
You tried to kill me once, I survived.
You stabbed me in the heart again, I thought I'd die, but I won't.
Because I'm strong.

Kill my hopes for you in one shot.
Congratulations, you did that.

I will stop hoping, because you're not worth my time, my energy, and my brain cells at that.
I will stop thinking.
I know myself better than anyone.
I know I always say and no actions are seen.
But this time, I will try.
I have never really tried in the past.
So this time, I will try.
Try to stop hoping, try to stop thinking, and try to stop loving.
End this unworthy love for good.

Goodbye, My Love.

Things happened and ended too fast.
I couldn't react in time.
Looking through the calender, I realise how short is the time I spent with you.
I have not feel you enough.
Have not feel the love enough.
I find it so hard to let go.

I'm such a selfish person.
You belonged to me once and now, I'm whining because I lost you.
I want you all to myself, I want you back.
I'm just finding ways to hurt myself again.
I know that, yet I couldn't help it.

I want to be the idiot who once belonged to you.
Though I know it's impossible, I still hope.


I realise.. I'm just a sore loser who can't stop crying once left alone.



You Might Come Back

[JS] you might come back
you might come back
why aren’t you coming back
i’m waiting for you like this
like a fool

[WY] i tried to forget again today
but the more i do, it becomes more vivid
the memories of you is holding me and won’t let me go, woo yeah

[CS] you’ve already left
but i still have useless hopes
i’m still the same, it’s too hard, i can’t forget you

[JH] (at the tip of my hand) i can still feel your body heat
(at the tips of my eyes) my eyelids redden as i yearn for you
i can’t do it, i can’t let you go

[JS] you might come back
you might come back
why aren’t you coming back
i’m waiting for you like this
like a fool
[JB] you might come back
you might come back
why aren’t you coming back
i’m still waiting for you
you might come back

[NK] i was happy just being together
i was happy just looking at (you)
(i) feel as i have the whole (whole) world.
it was like that.. yeah

[CS] you’ve already left
but i still have useless hopes
i’m still the same, it’s too hard, i can’t forget you

[JH] (in my ears) i can still hear your voice
(with my two eyes) i can still see your image clearly
i can’t do it, i can’t let you go

[JS] you might come back (i’m going to wait)
you might come back (oh~ you again, you)
why aren’t you coming back (to me)
i’m waiting for you like this
like a fool
[JB] you might come back (you)
you might come back (will come back)
why aren’t you coming back (baby)
i’m still waiting for you (waiting like this)
you might come back

[TC] if you can turn back those footsteps that left me
if you’re yearning for me as you remember the past memories
you can come back to me, i won’t ask for the reason
just come back next to me, come back to me
yearning for you again today, i wiped my tears
without any reason, the tears just flowed
the emptiness you’ve left is big, the thoughts of you grow deeper
thinking of you again today, like a fool

[JS] you might come back (come back)
you might come back (with my tears, oh)
why aren’t you coming back (to me, who’s waiting for you)
i’m waiting for you like this (without a word)
(even though it can’t..) like a fool
[JB] you might come back (no one)
you might come back (can replace you)
why aren’t you coming back (at this place, i’m.. oh, you..)
i’m still waiting for you
you might come back

I feel so scared suddenly.
Really really scared.
I regretted.
Regretted not waiting.
I'm panicking now.
I feel so helpless.
I want you back.
I really do.
But I can't do anything about it anymore.
What can I do with this heart of mine?
I'm so scared right now.

I keep thinking of the What Ifs.
What if I waited a little longer.
What if I hadn't smsed you.
Would you still be mine?
I suppose not.
Because your heart was never with me.

I thought I could be strong.
I thought I could feel indifferent about it.
But I was wrong.
It's hurting so bad right now.
Nothing could relieve the pain.

I miss you. I really do.
I don't know what else can I do.
All this time, I've been trying so hard.
I couldn't just say "Goodbye" to you that easily anymore.
I don't want to say goodbye.
I really don't...

Promises made are meant to be broken.
Is that true?
The promises you made is that fragile?
I had hoped for them to last...

I want to talk to you again.
I want to see you again.
I want to hold you and never let go.
You said you'd do the same too.
What happened to those promises?

I can't quit whining.
I want to blab about my unworthy feelings.
I don't know what else can I do to stop feeling afraid.
I want to stop hoping.
But I couldn't let go.
This came too suddenly.
I don't want to let go.
I couldn't let go.
I'm talking like a sore loser.
But I'm really desperate now.

I Love You.

I'm posting emo shit up.
Venting all my emotions.
It ended again.
I want to stop feeling like this.
I regretted, yet a big part of my heart know it's for the better.
The feelings just isn't there anymore.
I will stop holding on, because you never cared.

After Love Translations
I thought you were my love
I thought you were my everything
I believed that you would be my last love

I laughed only for you
I lived only for you
I believed in your love and that it was happiness

It’s all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You’ve hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you’ll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

Being loved by one person
Giving love to one person
I foolishly believed that person would be you

It’s all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You’ve hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you’ll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

{RAP}
To say it was love was a lie
Saying that you loved me was a lie
Saying it was eternal was a lie
Left me Only with the words that she’ll come back
Where did she go (We’re falling further apart)
WHere did she go We’re falling further & further apart
I’ll love only you

Just in case you came back, back to me
I can’t love again
Even though you hurt me, and saddened me
I’m waiting only for you

It’s all lies, All lies
Our separation was all a lie
Because you are my love, my all
I’m waiting only for you

Let Go/To Send Translations
Long time no see. You got prettier.
Your brightly smiling face,
My heart hurts.
I have so much to say but I bury them inside my heart.
Because I have to let you go.
When you wake me up,
When you cook for me,
When you sometimes wait for me secretly and then jump out at me,
When we kiss, when we first met,
All of these do not let me to forget you.

It has to be you,
I can't live without you.
I try to fight it off, I try to push you away
but I can't.
Because I love you, because I love you.
Because you have all of my heart.

When I wake up alone (I remember you)
When I eat alone (I miss you)
Sometimes living is too much. When I want to lean on someone,
When I dream about you (I want to hug you)
When I see someone like you
These moments make me miss you more.

It has to be you,
I can't live without you.
I try to fight it off, I try to push you away
but I can't.
Because I love you, because I love you.
Because you have all of my heart.

When we born again, when we meet you again,
Let's notice each other sooner.
Let's never say good bye.
I as your man, and you as my girl,
Let's live like that forever.

It has to be me,
You can't live without me.
I know your heart more than anybody else but I'll let you go.
Because I love you. Because I have to.
Because you have all of my heart.

I hate to let you go, that's what my heart says.
But I have to let you go.

Why did things turn out this way again?
I thought things were starting to turn well.
I thought we had a future.
Turns out I was wrong.
You're still the same.
Still the same old person who has been hurting me over and over again.
Still the same person who couldn't say "I Love You" to me firmly.
Still the same person who told me "I Love You" only to realise you're not.
Still the same person... same person who I love so much.
Same person who made me hate myself for loving you that much.
It's time to end isn't it?
Yet another time to end.
The time is never right for the both of us.
It never was, it will never be.

Sometimes I wonder, why did I fall in love with you, when I know it hurts so much.
Why did I continue loving you, when I know the cycle will repeat itself.
Why did I continue loving you, when I know I will get hurt again.

Dumb Minyi. You're a fool you know that?
It didn't even last.
Dreams are dreams afterall.
Dreams can never become reality, no matter how hard you try.

Here I am, waiting for you again.
Waiting for the reply which I fear so much, yet expected.
We're just not meant to be.
No matter what the results turn out to be, I will stand strong.
I'm tired of waiting for you, that's what I've been doing all this time.
It's time for this love to go to sleep, sleep for eternity.
But no matter how tired I am, I will stand, for I will not fall for the same reason again.

Yet, I still hope that the results will not be what I'd expect.
Though chances are almost impossible, I still hope.

Happy birthday to me....

생일 축하합니다~
생일 축하합니다~
사랑하는 민이아~
생일 축하합니다~

네~ 민이아~
생일 축하해~ ㅋㅋ

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! :D
AM LOVING MYSELF A LOT A LOT!
HAHAHA!
sounds so much like a 自恋狂 =.=

THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I WILL HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
HOHOHO!

21 November 2009

HAD A VERY VERY UNGLAM START OF THE DAY! :X
Dear JIEMEIS surprised me at my house when i was still sleeping.
was in those 阿嫲睡衣 when they entered my room.
lia gonged and screamed ANDWAEEEEEEEEE a lot of times and hid myself under the blanket.
they sang birthday song for me and took those really really unglam pictures of me.
most la ta state. :X
made a wish and blew the candle.
bathed.
ate the cake then went out.

went to cine to watch 2012.
longggggg movie.
but not bad.
shows the ugly and beautiful side of humanity.
jing fell asleep halfway through the movie though. :X
felt quite depressed during the movie.
cant imagine that's probably how we're going to die in the future. :/
pris left after the movie as she had to attend bbq party. :(

then went to beach road for steamboat.
slippery floor.
me and jing nearly fell down.
steamboat jjang! (Y)

walked to bugis street after that to choose bag for my present.
me and beh loved walking in those streets.
though it's damn ulu la.

the guy at zinc is freaking interesting (as quoted by amelia).
he got us to guess the titles of korean songs.
for every right answer, we would get a discount or something.
first song he play was JaeJoong's Forgotten Season.
when i heard the intro i shouted "我知道！！"
but cant seem to recall who sang this song.
and i thought it was Seung Gi!
*stabs myself for not knowing it was my husband's song*
then the guy said it was by DBSK.
was damn 激动 when i was trying to recall the title.
managed to guess it before jae started singing.
but am still damn sadded that i guessed the singer's name wrong. T.T
next was a song from SS501.
we all screamed "LIJIA!!!!" immediately when that guy told us it was from SS501.
lijia panicked when she couldn't guess it because she never heard of that song before.
in the end we gave up and lijia asked that guy for the title of the song.
which was "lucky days".
then lijia was like, "lucky days is japanese song what."
and damn sadded also that she failed to guess it right.
then next was suju's song.
ame guessed it right. RESET.
hoho.
last song was mirotic! :D
we were all like "aiya~ mirotic la~" once we heard the intro for the song.
hehheh.

decided which colour to buy and they paid for it.
once again, THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!
ME LOVE YOU ALL!
HAHAHAHA!
감사합니다 친구야~

walked around bugis street for a while more.
then went to bugis junction.
the christmas tree! (Y)
took photos there.
birthday girl am the STAR! xD
amelia = bodyguard/manager
wendy = nanny (omg sounds so... hahahaha)
jingyi = make up artist
lijia = papparazzi
huiru = fan
hweeping = personal assistant (if i'm not wrong)

went food court for desserts.
mango ice! :D
lijia and jing were like finding all sorts of excuses to eat the vanilla ice cream of hp's red bean ice.
hilarious!
went home after that as food court close at 10pm. :(

Thank you Jiemeis for surprising me and celebrating my birthday in advance for me!
I LOVE YOU GUYS! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


Where'd you go?
Sigh..

doing marketing tut now.
feeling damn fucked up at the same time.

I don't know why I even try anymore.

OH FREAK!
I SO 无缘 with electrical devices that are such HUGE part of my life.
My phone's spoiled and NOW MY LAPTOP?! and MOUSE?!
God damn it!
Minor problems though.
Such as my phone losing it's "hearing abilities" and my laptop losing it's "eat-life-on-electricity abilities （吃电功能）".
Which means I can't use my laptop on electricity.
Which also meant that my laptop relies on the battery.
Which also also meant that I can't use my laptop while I'm charging it.
Which also also also meant that I have nothing to do while waiting for my laptop to charge.
Tsk.

WHICH ASSHOLE DAI-SAI-ED ME?! :@:@:@:@:@

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
SCHOOL TODAY IS.......
!&!(#*@^#()!*)!*#(&@(!*()!
time....passed by really slowly.
was close to falling asleep during Stats and POA.
gloria KO-ed during POA.
tired tired day.

went straight home after lessons ended.
fell asleep.
dun even remember replying to the first sms from jing.
THAT tired. :X

woke up at 7+ and had dinner.
am still tired now. =.=

Just read akp.
My heart fell to a bottomless pit immediately.
Please stay together.
5 as 1.
DongBangShinKi will be incomplete without any of the members.
Stay together...
Stay...

동방신기 파이팅!

Stay, Forever as One.






Always Keep The Faith.

30 Oct
can't remember what happened in school.
went home with beh.
was looking through blogs before a LOUD "ANNYEONGHASEHYO!" shocked us.
yes, it came out of jing's mouth.
and amelia came out from behind.
continued looking through blogs and chit chatting.
then 5.40!!!!!!!!!!!
MUSIC BANK!!!
went to on the tv.
and WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
beh and jing went COMPLETELY crazy at the sight of SHINee.
amelia went COMPLETELY crazy even before FT Triple came out.
she just saw the name.
I went a LITTLE crazy at the sight of JaeJin. :X
hahahaha.
new craze. :X
then watched until 7.
and dinner!
watched Bride's Wars after dinner.
i insisted on watching. :X
paiseh. :X

then amelia gtg at 9.
so they all left.
was going to bathe when i received a call from amelia, asking if i could bring them an umbrella.
so went.
waited for amelia to cab before sending jing and beh to the opposite side.
waited damn long for the cab!
jing flagged but those freaking cabs just wouldn't stop!
when it happened the first time the 3 of us were like, O.O WTH?!
waited for quite some time before they successfully flagged one.
then homed.

2Nov
School as usual.
POM as usual.
EWS as usual.
nothing out of the ordinary.
was super hungry during EWS.
went mac after school.
i finally ate my McNuggets.
realised i am SUPER SUPER BROKE.
and it's only the first day of school.
god damn it.

This reminds me of Sec 4 SS lectures. :X
"MONEY is the MOST IMPORTANT thing in the WORLD."